Yet again, I have taken quite the hiatus from interacting with my blog (has it really been over a year!?!?). There has been a lot going on in my life, some good, some less than ideal. That is no excuse to leave you hanging though, so for that, I apologize.
Physically, I have been traveling for work a lot. I am now licensed in Wisconsin, Alaska, and Kentucky. I am also working on obtaining my license for Michigan to work there later this year. I have been to Orlando and Las Vegas twice for conferences since I was last here. I have been speaking at more conferences and have three more conferences scheduled to speak at this year (another 12 hours). I have taken a little time off to take care of myself. I have worked more than I should have. I walked the MS Challenge Walk (50 miles in 3 days). I developed a back issue that has had me in physical therapy for the last 6 weeks.
Emotionally, I have been through the ringer. Many highs and many lows, lower than I have had in a really long time. I have had wonderful times with family and friends. I have had realizations that I need to take finding a mental health professional a priority. I have saved lives. I have ended lives. I have laughed and I have cried. I am tired.
Flower at Bok Tower Gardens in Lake Wales, FL January 2020
I have so many things left on my To Do List that I can’t find half of the list. On the top of that list is setting boundaries. I need to take time for myself. I need to make the time to actually accomplish all of my responsibilities, not just “fit it in” when I should be sleeping. I need to heal in mind, body, and soul. Somewhere along the line, I lost a bit of myself. I have put so much into my business, my clients, my patients, NOMV, my family, my friends, and all the rest, that I forgot about me.
When I look back at the last year and a half, I see a lot of movement. I see a lot of great things that have been accomplished and I see amazing experiences. I also see a lot of busy. A lot of exhaustion. I see bits of myself stripped away, as I told myself I was being selfish taking time off for myself. I now see that in my goal of providing help for others in mind, body, and soul, I neglected me.
So, I am here to let you know that I am a work in progress. I am setting a goal of sharing my pathway back to myself with you. The highs and the lows. The sadness and the joy.
Please, join me on my walk to healing. For we all are broken in some way, shape, or form.
Let us heal together.
What do you have to heal in your life?
Days in the Life of a Christian Veterinarian 